One chubby girl's journey to overcome a weight problem and finally conquer her dream of being a 'former fatty.'
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Finding your stride
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Still trying...
This week: 213.6
It's something. There was a lot of fluctuating going on in September, but I'm still here and still trying.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Another loss
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
WOO HOO!!!!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Another week...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Just one more cheesburger, please!
I have food issues. Now, by stating that I don't mean that I get up at night and eat out of the cupboards, consume tons of calories, and then return to bed. I actually don't eat after 9pm unless dinner has been severely delayed, and then I choose only to eat light. I mean, for some reason, I have trouble making good food choices. It's not about time or being hungry, it's just because I want it. I crave something and then I give in WAY TOO MUCH!
The other evening I was coming home from the grocery store with healthy veggies and meat and fruits, and still, after passing Burger King, I decided to turn around and go back to order to Jr. Whopper. Even as I was ordering, I knew it was bad. I knew that I didn't really want it, but something inside me was insisting that I really really wanted it; that I had to have it. After eating it, I felt horrible. Both for the diet and for my stomach. THat type of food makes me sick, for real. So why did I do it? I can't figure it out.
I've watched the shows like Biggest Loser and Losing it with Jillian and I hear them talk about food issues stemming from something missing in your life, or issues with family, or whatever. But I don't see those in myself. I don't think I eat to feel better, I know I don't feel better or proud of myself when I do it. I know what I want is to be healthier and feel great about working out and making strides, but for some reason I still do something that I know is the exact opposite of my goal. I'm not successful with a food journal because when I eat like this, I just don't write it down (kind of like, who besides me is going to know). It feels like I don't thing being accountable to me is enough, but it should be cause I'm doing this for me. What the hell?!
SO, I'm looking for suggestions. I keep telling myself that this is something I can handle on my own, that I just have to choose to make the right choices ... I've even talked to a therapist about this stuff ... and it does work...for like a week. I'm tired of trying to get myself motivated and keeping myself on track...but I'm so fed up at this point, I'm not going to let myself give up. I want to be healthier! I want to be fit by 30! I want to mow the lawn in a pair of shorts and sports bra and feel good about it!
It's almost like a need a monitor on me when I'm faced with a food choice. They make those alcohol monitors, like the one they gave Lohan, why can't they make a food one!!!? Anyone want to come live with me and monitor my every food move? Just kidding. I really want to be able to do this for myself. I want being accountable to me, enough motivation for me. I do notice that when I'm with someone else and faced with a food choice, I make the better choice. But, when I'm by myself I tend not to. I notice that I can "talk myself into" making a bad choice about three or four times a week. It really feels like there are two personalities going on inside this healthy quest; I'm just tired of the unfit one winning more than it should.
Any help? Any suggestions? I need you ladies.
Results: Workout outs are going great. Worked out 4 days last week for over and hour each time. THis week I've managed 3 days already!
Last week's weight: 219.2
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
It's HOT outside!
So, this past week I've been working out everyday for an hour. Whether it's getting up in the morning and swimming laps, jogging, lifting weights, taking a fitness class, or doing yard work, I've been doing something active every day for at least an hour.
On the "If I Were A Fit Chick" fanpage, we've posted a summer challenge for all to participate (no matter what your fitness level is currently) and I would like to once again encourage you all to go check it out and post your goals (You might win a free t-shirt!). I met my first goal in the first day, which was to swim 20 laps, so I made two new goals for the challenge and posted them there as well. I vow to break the 200 lbs barrier , and to run a 5K without stopping by Labor Day. So, stay tuned to see if I make it. As an incentive, I've posted an unflattering profile picture of myself that will not be removed until I weigh in below 200 lbs....talk about motivation. Yikes!
When I weighed in this week, knowing that I had put in a lot of work, I was a little disappointed to see the exact same weight pop up on the scale. Being that the workouts are going great, it means one thing...food. Last week I started keeping a food journal and did great during the week and found that I was eating a lot healthier. However, with the holiday weekend and all the great food at my reach, I overate and failed to record what I consumed (mental blocking seems to keep me from writing down the bad food...hmmm). Anyway, this week I want to work on what I eat and keeping myself accountable. I don't know if the food journal is for me, but I'm going to keep trying and see what happens. At least for now I feel great about the workouts and love the progress I'm making both on the treadmill and in the water.
Stay tuned folks...let's see what this heat can melt off me!
Last week weigh-in: 219.2
This week weigh-in: 219.2
NO MOVEMENT
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
It's Summer and that means FITNESS!
Updates to know about: I quit the gym I belonged to and joined the local (well, newly local since we just moved) YMCA. It's slightly cheaper, but more importantly, offers a ton of cool exercise classes that are included in the monthly cost. AND, you don't sign up for classes, you can just drop in them which means I can switch in and out of classes as I please.
I went through the class schedule and picked out classes I could take (drop into) each night (m, t, w, th, sat)...giving myself 2 evenings off each week. Keep in mind, this will be in addition to my hour workout in the morning monday through friday. The goal is that if I get home after work and find myself bored or in need of some additional excercise, I can look at my schedule and say, "Hey look, there is a spinning class tonight at the Y. I can go do that!" This is by no means my making a stringent workout routine that will quickly leave me burnt out. It's outlining my options.
Second update: I have made a goal for myself this summer (see If I Were A Fit Chick facebook fanpage) or being able to swim 20 laps three times a week by Labor Day. So, the first thing to do was learn to swim! I start my first adult swim lesson tonight and I am so damn nervous. Right now, the extent of my swimming abilities is doggie paddling and it's time that I learned more.
And that, my friends is where I'm at this week. I've got goals, I've got ambition, and I've got all of you! Summer of Fitness here I come!!!
Last weigh in: 221
This week: 219.2
Loss of 1.8 lbs
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
SHE"S BACK!!!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Week 6
I need a turn-around again. But, I feel like every week is this way. I might have a good emotional week and then the next week it's sucky and I dont' care about the weight loss.
I need something...grrr
Anyway, this week's numbers:
Previous week: 218.2
This week: 219.4
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Week 4 (part 2)
This week I worked out this morning for an hour and 45 minutes! My goal is to workout every morning for the rest of the week (Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday).
The numbers:
Last week: 218.8
This week: 218.2
Loss: 0.6 pounds
Not stunning, but next week will be better. That's the goal, every week get a little better.
Thanks for following.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
The Tides Are Changing
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
New Week 2: Surviving
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Depression and Weight-Loss
Monday, February 8, 2010
Hearty and Fiber-Full Whole Wheat Bread Recipe
Whole Wheat (Heavy) Bread
Ingredients:
7.5 cups of whole wheat flour
2.5 cups of water
4 tea spoons of dry yeast
2 tea spoons of salt
4 tea spoons of sugar
And then whatever you want to add to your bread. We use:
-Oatmeal
-Flaxseed
-Sunflower seeds
-Fennel seeds
Pretty much just add these ingredients slowly until it’s evenly mixed in the dough. Use your best judgment.
Directions:
Preheat the oven to 340 degrees.
Use a large bowl that you can use to mix all the ingredients in as you go along.
In this bowl, mix a half cup of water with the yeast, salt and sugar. Set this on top of the oven as it heats up. Let it sit for about ten minutes to help activate the yeast.
Then, add the flour and about one and half cups of water. Mix the dough together with your hands and knead it slowly. Add he last cup of water as you go. The goal is to get a soft dough that is well mixed. (You may need to add a little extra water as you go. Just add it slowly so as not to have a runny dough.)
Finally, add your mix-ins (oatmeal, flaxseed, seeds, etc). Once it is well mixed and kneaded, set it on the warm stove, cover with a cloth, and let the dough rise for about 40 minutes.
Knead the dough again and then form into a loaf shape. Place the loaf in a well greased tall (2” or more high) baking dish or large loaf pan if you have one. We use a large lasagna baking dish. Score the top of the loaf to prevent / limit cracking.
Bake for an hour and 20 minutes.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Weight and the Real World
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Okay, I'm back...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Tuesday, Jan 12, 2010: The good, the bad, and the "needs improvement"
I did manage to workout two other nights last week. Steve and I did Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred and got our asses kicked. We both felt very sore the following days, but were happy with our short workouts. The plan is to continue to supplement my workouts with 30 Day Shred sessions in the evening (basically on days when I feel my morning workout was lacking, or when I have time and feel like really punishing myself).
Now for the bad...I got on the scale this morning and am sad to report a 2 pound gain. I'm not really sure what happened since I did workout a bit and felt I was a little more attentive to my eating habits (although far from perfect). So, this week I will be focusing more on my eating and trying harder to get up every morning and workout in the gym.
So that's my week in a nutshell. Other than signing up for the Pittsburgh Half-Marathon in May, I have not set any new goals. But, I have expanded my fan base by duel posting both here and on a fan page that my friend Katrina Luther and I created on facebook called, "If I Were A Fit Chick." If you haven't already, go check it out. Until then, I'll be keeping up my end of the deal.
See you next week.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Thursday, Jan 7, 2010
So, I didn't get up this morning to workout like I planned, but I did manage a short workout when I got home tonight. On my way to work I texted Steve (my guy) and asked him if he would workout with me when I got home from work and being the great support that he is, he agreed. First, I had him take 'before' pictures of me which I've posted. Then we worked out for about 30 minutes doing kettle bell and balance ball exercises. We capped off the night with a delicious and healthy dinner. It was so amazing, I decided to post the recipe here...
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
It's Tuesday, January 5, 2010 and today is the day! I'm starting a weight loss goal and I vow to finish it this time. No more making New Years Resolution about weight-loss and watching the year pass by without success. This will be the year I finish this goal.
My weigh-ins will be every Tuesday morning (which will coincide with the weekly airing of The Biggest Loser show). While I would like meet this goal by August, I am giving myself till December 31, 2010 to reach my final goal weight.
To keep myself accountable for my actions, I will post here at least every week (more if I need to) and list my actual weight and workout success for the previous week. If I don't workout, you all will know.
So here goes:
Initial Weigh-In:
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Weight: 215.2 pounds
Goal: 140 pounds
Need to lose: 75.2 pounds
Week 1: January 5, 2010
Weight: 215.2