So, I really debated on whether or not to post this week. It's been a rough week and I know that the week to come will not be any better. This past Friday, one of my co-workers and dear friend, Beth Dudley, tragically died. She went to bed Thursday night and just didn't wake up the next morning...she was only 40 years old. Needless, its been a very rough week and dealing with her passing is not easy for me or any of her friends and co-workers.
Hence the title of this week's posting, "Weight and the Real World." As with many other people, sadness drives some of us to eat more carelessly. I have not been eating well at all since Friday and this week's weigh-in shows that fact. After stepping on the scale this morning, I felt so guilty. Beth was a blog follower and fellow "If I Were A Fit Chick" facebook fan. I know that she would tell me that things happen and next week is a new week (and she'd be right), but it still makes me think about what I've done. Beth was a great inspiration. She was a weight-loss success. Over the past six years, she had managed to lost 40 some pounds and keep it off. She continued to keep track of everything she ate, tally the calories, and balance her healthy eating with nights out and "splurge-worthy" foods. She was my office cheerleader and always encouraged me to continue with my journey.
So, that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to recognize that this week and last week are going to be tough; that I'm not going to make the best decisions, but the long-term goal is still in sight and I will pick it back up and power through. Thank you Beth. Thank you for all your words of kindness and encouragement. While this weight-loss / healthy lifestyle journey is about me and will continue to be driven by me...you will always be in my thoughts and continue to be my cheerleader. This year is for me and you.
Starting weight: 215.2
Previous week weight: 216.6
End of week four: 220.6
Megan - First, I am so, so sorry that you have lost your friend. I can't imagine how sad you feel. And one thing that you can learn from this about you and your weight loss is - that if food isn't the problem, then eating isn't the answer. It's just going to make you feel worse at the end of the week. Instead, use what you know about life and deal with the loss of Beth in healthier ways. Talk to friends, family, pray (if you are one who prays), take a walk, write a poem. There are so many ways to express your sadness, but eating uncontrollably is not going to help you feel better. Temporarily, yes. Long term, the hurt will still be there. I have an email from my WW leader that I'm going to send you. Again, babe, I'm so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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